You want to be — friends with benefits? [ Oh. ] I mean I know I'll be... [ He hesitates. ] Sharing you. Until you decide whether this is something you want. Until we decide. Like you said.
[ He understands why Dirk would prefer it that way, and it is better to make sure for both their sakes, but the irrational part of his mind that's amplified by blood corruption is wondering if that makes him the fallback option, not the priority. And what if they sleep together and Dirk decides he doesn't want anything more? ...Is he obligated to sleep with Dirk so he can make a more informed decision about a potential relationship?
At least Dirk isn't wanting to take advantage of being uncommitted by actively looking to sleep with more people. That knowledge offers some measure of comfort.
Prior to the first time he and TB had been intimate, he said he wanted a relationship, TB happily agreed, and that was that. No uncertainty or trial period, no lingering hookups to worry about... He'd gotten very lucky with how smooth and easy that went, he's realising. But he's doing his best to carefully navigate the present unfamiliar territory. ]
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You want to be — friends with benefits? [ Oh. ] I mean I know I'll be... [ He hesitates. ] Sharing you. Until you decide whether this is something you want. Until we decide. Like you said.
[ He understands why Dirk would prefer it that way, and it is better to make sure for both their sakes, but the irrational part of his mind that's amplified by blood corruption is wondering if that makes him the fallback option, not the priority. And what if they sleep together and Dirk decides he doesn't want anything more? ...Is he obligated to sleep with Dirk so he can make a more informed decision about a potential relationship?
At least Dirk isn't wanting to take advantage of being uncommitted by actively looking to sleep with more people. That knowledge offers some measure of comfort.
Prior to the first time he and TB had been intimate, he said he wanted a relationship, TB happily agreed, and that was that. No uncertainty or trial period, no lingering hookups to worry about... He'd gotten very lucky with how smooth and easy that went, he's realising. But he's doing his best to carefully navigate the present unfamiliar territory. ]