Kaneki listens, he gives him all the attention to try and put all the pieces together. He doesn't know about aliens (trolls? isn't that a fantasy beast? Well, kaneki is a ghoul and not the ghost kind, so who is he to judge what a race of aliens calls themselves), but still manages to piece some things together. Two timelines; beta and alpha. In each different one there are guardians and they are different in each timeline... but still the same, apparently.
But he also understand the issues regarding family. Because in the end, Dirk has no blood connections and lived completely alone with another girl - Roxy, right, Kaneki remembers - in a desolated world. All he had was the memory of a brother.
But that last part causes Kaneki's chest to squeeze. He frowns a little, and forgets about personal space again, so his hand can reach the side of Dirk's face and push the blond hair away from it with a stroke ] Hey.
You are not just that. I doubt a NPC in a game would enjoy food like this, or talk like this, or exist like this. Or touch me like you do. And even if your existence is complicated, here you are. Living, despite it all.
And I see you. [ Kaneki knows he is not enough. But he will give as much as he can.]
Dirk realizes it too and he looks partially embarrassed by it because, yeah, like. He understands objectively how fucking batshit insane he probably sounds right now.
And worse yet was he hadn't even really lived with Roxy. They were 3,000 miles apart. He could have gone to live with her. If he had just...cared more. If he was a better person. If she had been a guy, Dirk knows he would have tried. Roxy knew too. And what exactly did that say about Dirk?
Dirk almost jumps at the touch to his face. He's absolutely completely unused to any physical comfort when he is allowing himself to be vulnerable. He pretty much never allowed himself to be vulnerable and up until now had only allowed that to transpire online where he had the safety of the internet to hide behind. This was different and he nearly absconds by default.
Instead, he stays still and lets Kaneki comfort him. Maybe because he wanted any attention from Kaneki or maybe it was because...Maybe it was because he had never allowed himself to have any comfort in regards to this subject. He's frozen but it's better than running away. His face is carefully blank and, then, slowly, a bit of color fills his cheeks.
Kaneki is more than enough is the thing. Kaneki is the only thing presently that mattered to Dirk and so he closes his hand around Kaneki's. He turns his head and kisses that palm and then his wrist, holding his lips against Kaneki's pulse. I could love him one day. It's an easy, comfortable realization and it brings Dirk out of his seat and he's leaning over to kiss Kaneki on his mouth.)
As long as you see me then I suppose the rest doesn't matter.
(Another kiss, slower.)
I'm not as good of a person as you think I am, but I'm selfish enough that I'm not interested in changing your mind about that. I want you to think I'm worth something, that I'm better than I actually am.
[ His pulse quickens at the kiss, but it also feels warmer now. Just like Kaneki's chest. But he does not pull away and instead Ken's other hand reaches for Dirk's face again, to stroke his cheek.
Of course he doesn't reject the kiss that follows next either, kissing Dirk back softly, lovingly ]
Dirk. You are good to me. So you are enough, a thousand times enough. [ and so hard on himself. He could be perfect and perhaps would still not be enough to him, because that's human nature, isn't it?
Kaneki smiles while still stroking the blonde's cheek. ] Let me decide that for myself. So far, you are in the clear. [ he says playfully, before pressing his forehead against Dirk's ]
Dude, they see me as a megalomaniac. And they aren't too off base.
(He could be a downright terror to deal with and he'd be a liar if he said he didn't have a history of abusive tendencies. Between his beta and alpha timeline, he wasn't the greatest to the people he cared about the most. Kaneki made him feel like he had the potential to be something kinder. Better.
He had to be hard on himself. If he wasn't, he'd never change, would he? But maybe having Kaneki believe in him...Maybe that would help. He never did have someone believe in him like this.
Dave, maybe, but Dave had also come from a crueler version of Dirk, and Dave had just longed for a connection to Dirk that he hadn't had back when Dave's brother existed.)
All right. I can do that. (Allow Kaneki the autonomy of choice.
He closes his eyes for a second, and then tips his head to kiss Kaneki lightly on the mouth.)
Thanks, kid. You're way too sweet to me. But it might just work.
[ even if he has a hard time calling it that. But in the end, Kaneki knows it's hard to see yourself and the way you are; it's hard to accept positive things about oneself too, and Kaneki is guilty of it many many times. Kaneki also knows it will take a while until Dirk actually believes him, so for now he will just remind him he doesn't see him as a bad person at all.
Quite the opposite, in fact.
Kaneki smiles into the kiss, before his hand moves to Dirk's cheek, stroking it gently, slowly ]
I will keep going until it does. [ he dares to lean in for another kiss, but this time he keeps their lips pressed longer, until Ken dares to press his tongue against Dirk's lips. It should be fine, right? They are already kissing after all. Why not more? ]
(But Kaneki isn't technically wrong. Although Dirk's not so sure if he had many friends in this place. Kyle, maybe. Kaneki, definitely. John...possibly, but mostly by virtue of Dave.
Kaneki is so fucking sweet to him though that he can't help but feel like Kaneki would wake up one day and feel duped into thinking that Dirk was better than he actually was.
But in the meantime? He can't refuse him anything. Especially with Kaneki touching his tongue to Dirk's lip and he feels this warmth blossom under his ribs. He kisses back, opening his mouth up so he could touch their tongues together.)
[ Dirk would have to do something really bad to kaneki for him to actually think that and even if Dirk argues, he won't listen.
Specially when there are kisses like that. Specially when Dirk accepts those kisses and kisses him back, specially when Dirk touches him so lovingly, specially when Dirk calls him pet-names... there is no way Kaneki can ever see this person in a bad light, when this person has given him so much already.
Dirk could have anyone he wanted in this place. And yet here he is, kissing Kaneki as if he is the most precious thing in the world.
With a small happy sound, Kaneki comes closer and rests his hands on Dirk's shoulders, breaking the kiss so he can whisper against his lips ] Dinner isn't over yet.
There is still dessert left. [ and Kaneki means himself.
OH BOY OH BOY. Look at Kaneki's attempt to be seductive. Amazing stuff. Honestly, he feels like that was really corny and bad, and he can't help but to criticize himself for the weak flirtation tactic. But he did try, and is even trying to keep a straight face despite the blush - until he snorts and shakes his head ]
(Yeah there was probably no going down a dark path with these two. Dirk was already so caught up in wanting to move time and space for Kaneki's sake that the idea of doing anything to harm him or upset him...Nah.
Dessert, huh? Dirk smiles idly for a second, clueless by what Kaneki is implying...But then -
Oh.)
Oh-
(My god.)
Are you implying you're dessert?
(...He has been blessed. Let it be known. He has been blessed by the fucking universe with the Cutest Guy Alive In Existence. Dirk's face is a bit pink and he grabs Kaneki, smiling broadly now.)
Holy fucking shit. (He kisses him all over his face because they're really that Obnoxious Couple.) Dude, I dunno. This dessert might give me cavities. Fuck. Oh my god.
[ kaneki's face turns bright red, even thought at least this time he doesn't thinking about just running away and dig a hole to die there. Instead, he actually laughs while Dirk covers his face in kisses, but specially at that cavities comment ]
You are worst than I am...! [ Kaneki's hands reach towards Dirk, one holding the back of the blond head while the other rests at his cheek ]
You are into really strange things-- [' and yet kaneki is genuinely happy, placing several kisses against Dirk's lips, before kaneki finally wraps his arms around his shoulders ]
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It's A LOT.
So much.
Kaneki listens, he gives him all the attention to try and put all the pieces together. He doesn't know about aliens (trolls? isn't that a fantasy beast? Well, kaneki is a ghoul and not the ghost kind, so who is he to judge what a race of aliens calls themselves), but still manages to piece some things together. Two timelines; beta and alpha. In each different one there are guardians and they are different in each timeline... but still the same, apparently.
But he also understand the issues regarding family. Because in the end, Dirk has no blood connections and lived completely alone with another girl - Roxy, right, Kaneki remembers - in a desolated world. All he had was the memory of a brother.
But that last part causes Kaneki's chest to squeeze. He frowns a little, and forgets about personal space again, so his hand can reach the side of Dirk's face and push the blond hair away from it with a stroke ] Hey.
You are not just that. I doubt a NPC in a game would enjoy food like this, or talk like this, or exist like this. Or touch me like you do. And even if your existence is complicated, here you are. Living, despite it all.
And I see you. [ Kaneki knows he is not enough. But he will give as much as he can.]
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Dirk realizes it too and he looks partially embarrassed by it because, yeah, like. He understands objectively how fucking batshit insane he probably sounds right now.
And worse yet was he hadn't even really lived with Roxy. They were 3,000 miles apart. He could have gone to live with her. If he had just...cared more. If he was a better person. If she had been a guy, Dirk knows he would have tried. Roxy knew too. And what exactly did that say about Dirk?
Dirk almost jumps at the touch to his face. He's absolutely completely unused to any physical comfort when he is allowing himself to be vulnerable. He pretty much never allowed himself to be vulnerable and up until now had only allowed that to transpire online where he had the safety of the internet to hide behind. This was different and he nearly absconds by default.
Instead, he stays still and lets Kaneki comfort him. Maybe because he wanted any attention from Kaneki or maybe it was because...Maybe it was because he had never allowed himself to have any comfort in regards to this subject. He's frozen but it's better than running away. His face is carefully blank and, then, slowly, a bit of color fills his cheeks.
Kaneki is more than enough is the thing. Kaneki is the only thing presently that mattered to Dirk and so he closes his hand around Kaneki's. He turns his head and kisses that palm and then his wrist, holding his lips against Kaneki's pulse. I could love him one day. It's an easy, comfortable realization and it brings Dirk out of his seat and he's leaning over to kiss Kaneki on his mouth.)
As long as you see me then I suppose the rest doesn't matter.
(Another kiss, slower.)
I'm not as good of a person as you think I am, but I'm selfish enough that I'm not interested in changing your mind about that. I want you to think I'm worth something, that I'm better than I actually am.
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[ His pulse quickens at the kiss, but it also feels warmer now. Just like Kaneki's chest. But he does not pull away and instead Ken's other hand reaches for Dirk's face again, to stroke his cheek.
Of course he doesn't reject the kiss that follows next either, kissing Dirk back softly, lovingly ]
Dirk. You are good to me. So you are enough, a thousand times enough. [ and so hard on himself. He could be perfect and perhaps would still not be enough to him, because that's human nature, isn't it?
Kaneki smiles while still stroking the blonde's cheek. ] Let me decide that for myself. So far, you are in the clear. [ he says playfully, before pressing his forehead against Dirk's ]
You will be alright.
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(He could be a downright terror to deal with and he'd be a liar if he said he didn't have a history of abusive tendencies. Between his beta and alpha timeline, he wasn't the greatest to the people he cared about the most. Kaneki made him feel like he had the potential to be something kinder. Better.
He had to be hard on himself. If he wasn't, he'd never change, would he? But maybe having Kaneki believe in him...Maybe that would help. He never did have someone believe in him like this.
Dave, maybe, but Dave had also come from a crueler version of Dirk, and Dave had just longed for a connection to Dirk that he hadn't had back when Dave's brother existed.)
All right. I can do that. (Allow Kaneki the autonomy of choice.
He closes his eyes for a second, and then tips his head to kiss Kaneki lightly on the mouth.)
Thanks, kid. You're way too sweet to me. But it might just work.
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[ even if he has a hard time calling it that. But in the end, Kaneki knows it's hard to see yourself and the way you are; it's hard to accept positive things about oneself too, and Kaneki is guilty of it many many times. Kaneki also knows it will take a while until Dirk actually believes him, so for now he will just remind him he doesn't see him as a bad person at all.
Quite the opposite, in fact.
Kaneki smiles into the kiss, before his hand moves to Dirk's cheek, stroking it gently, slowly ]
I will keep going until it does. [ he dares to lean in for another kiss, but this time he keeps their lips pressed longer, until Ken dares to press his tongue against Dirk's lips. It should be fine, right? They are already kissing after all. Why not more? ]
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(But Kaneki isn't technically wrong. Although Dirk's not so sure if he had many friends in this place. Kyle, maybe. Kaneki, definitely. John...possibly, but mostly by virtue of Dave.
Kaneki is so fucking sweet to him though that he can't help but feel like Kaneki would wake up one day and feel duped into thinking that Dirk was better than he actually was.
But in the meantime? He can't refuse him anything. Especially with Kaneki touching his tongue to Dirk's lip and he feels this warmth blossom under his ribs. He kisses back, opening his mouth up so he could touch their tongues together.)
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Specially when there are kisses like that. Specially when Dirk accepts those kisses and kisses him back, specially when Dirk touches him so lovingly, specially when Dirk calls him pet-names... there is no way Kaneki can ever see this person in a bad light, when this person has given him so much already.
Dirk could have anyone he wanted in this place. And yet here he is, kissing Kaneki as if he is the most precious thing in the world.
With a small happy sound, Kaneki comes closer and rests his hands on Dirk's shoulders, breaking the kiss so he can whisper against his lips ] Dinner isn't over yet.
There is still dessert left. [ and Kaneki means himself.
OH BOY OH BOY. Look at Kaneki's attempt to be seductive. Amazing stuff.
Honestly, he feels like that was really corny and bad, and he can't help but to criticize himself for the weak flirtation tactic. But he did try, and is even trying to keep a straight face despite the blush - until he snorts and shakes his head ]
That was really bad. I'm not good at this.
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Dessert, huh? Dirk smiles idly for a second, clueless by what Kaneki is implying...But then -
Oh.)
Oh-
(My god.)
Are you implying you're dessert?
(...He has been blessed. Let it be known. He has been blessed by the fucking universe with the Cutest Guy Alive In Existence. Dirk's face is a bit pink and he grabs Kaneki, smiling broadly now.)
Holy fucking shit. (He kisses him all over his face because they're really that Obnoxious Couple.) Dude, I dunno. This dessert might give me cavities. Fuck. Oh my god.
(He's dying. Dying.)
You're so cute it's unreal. Not good at this.
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You are worst than I am...! [ Kaneki's hands reach towards Dirk, one holding the back of the blond head while the other rests at his cheek ]
You are into really strange things-- [' and yet kaneki is genuinely happy, placing several kisses against Dirk's lips, before kaneki finally wraps his arms around his shoulders ]
Sit down. I will give you all the cavities.