(The reference to school only makes Dirk squeeze Junpei a little tighter. As if he could protect his friend through sheer force alone, but he knew timelines weren't that easy to alter and the damage had been done long ago.
At least here, Junpei had people to keep him safe. The purring catches Dirk off guard almost as much as the kiss caught Junpei off guard. It still surprised Dirk whenever he managed to make someone...happy. It makes him feel like the young person he actually was instead of like the Cool, Indifferent Dude he always preferred to act as.)
I can imagine. The idea of being around that many people like that is- unpleasant. (Dirk found that he got easily overstimulated by large crowds and excessive social situations. And add the whole sadistic bullying thing into it...well...
Dirk's distracted by the apology and he's quick to shake his head. Just once.)
Nah. Don't apologize, man. It's not your fault. You were just concerned about Kyle. I am too.
(And they both loved Kyle, so. He swallows slowly, mulling the whole situation over in his mind.)
It really ain't your fault. I'm uh...I'm not great with that subject, I guess. Sometimes I think I've matured past it, but then shit comes up and I feel like I'm sixteen and stupid again and I guess it's just a sore spot for me. Even if it's not about me. I just- I guess I know how it feels to be...
[ Junpei had only had the one relationship. Well. One relationship with two people. And both of those people had loved him so soundly from the start that being replaced had never been one of his worries. There wasn’t a way he could fathom Choso or Natsume cheating or betraying him.
He’d been haunted by the idea of HIM being made to cheat by some unexpected magic nonsense constantly. Even though logically the two boys were equally as susceptible to the whims of Folkmore, they were held at such a high regard by Junpei he couldn’t imagine them doing it even then.
He gives a little nuzzle up against Dirk. A reassurance. Comfort. ]
… it’s hard to forget … those old feelings. Even when you tell yourself you’re safe now. You’re loved now. You’re protected now. Your soul remembers.
[ He may not know the pain of being replaced, but he struggles sometimes still with traits gained from those days when he was bullied. The worry of opening up making him vulnerable. ]
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At least here, Junpei had people to keep him safe. The purring catches Dirk off guard almost as much as the kiss caught Junpei off guard. It still surprised Dirk whenever he managed to make someone...happy. It makes him feel like the young person he actually was instead of like the Cool, Indifferent Dude he always preferred to act as.)
I can imagine. The idea of being around that many people like that is- unpleasant. (Dirk found that he got easily overstimulated by large crowds and excessive social situations. And add the whole sadistic bullying thing into it...well...
Dirk's distracted by the apology and he's quick to shake his head. Just once.)
Nah. Don't apologize, man. It's not your fault. You were just concerned about Kyle. I am too.
(And they both loved Kyle, so. He swallows slowly, mulling the whole situation over in his mind.)
It really ain't your fault. I'm uh...I'm not great with that subject, I guess. Sometimes I think I've matured past it, but then shit comes up and I feel like I'm sixteen and stupid again and I guess it's just a sore spot for me. Even if it's not about me. I just- I guess I know how it feels to be...
How it feels like you can be so easily replaced.
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[ Junpei had only had the one relationship. Well. One relationship with two people. And both of those people had loved him so soundly from the start that being replaced had never been one of his worries. There wasn’t a way he could fathom Choso or Natsume cheating or betraying him.
He’d been haunted by the idea of HIM being made to cheat by some unexpected magic nonsense constantly. Even though logically the two boys were equally as susceptible to the whims of Folkmore, they were held at such a high regard by Junpei he couldn’t imagine them doing it even then.
He gives a little nuzzle up against Dirk. A reassurance. Comfort. ]
… it’s hard to forget … those old feelings. Even when you tell yourself you’re safe now. You’re loved now. You’re protected now. Your soul remembers.
[ He may not know the pain of being replaced, but he struggles sometimes still with traits gained from those days when he was bullied. The worry of opening up making him vulnerable. ]