I hope this doesn't wake you up. Please only respond at a reasonable hour, I simply wanted to get the message out while I had it. This is a bit of a personal question, so also please feel free to ignore it. When you discovered that you had a soulmate here, what was your initial reaction?
Also unrelated do you think it would be a very unpopular move to break up some of the parties I keep finding in the woods? I'm worried that they will attract monsters.
(nsfw stuff) just vibing in hot blonde solidarity ...he's definitely responding at like 4:20 am
(Yes he's nicknaming him Rider as in Flynn Rider to go with Dirk Strider I don't know it makes sense in his head and is cute bye.)
I have no fuckin' idea what a reasonable hour constitutes as for you, so. Wakey, wakey, eggs, and bakey I guess. I ain't ignoring shit.
Damn. You weren't kidding about it being personal. Uh, okay.
(Someone is asking him to be emotionally vulnerable who ISN'T Kaneki??? What does he do???
Is he supposed to manifest the cold unfeeling bastard cool guy persona here? He doesn't actually want to though. Especially not with Flynn of all people. So he just. Thinks. About the least lame way of putting this.)
I was happy, I guess. Relieved. Sounds dumb as fuck but I came from a situation where I figured I'd die a sad, lonely virgin. Not that there is anything wrong with being a virgin, but, you know. I wanted to show my love through boning my true love excessively or whatever. What's more romantic than dick?
No, okay, I'm getting off track here because this shit makes my skin crawl. It's complicated. I have soul-based powers. So I was happy, but I was also terrified that I was going to somehow inevitably kill him or fuck him up mentally or physically. Some part of me wanted to sprint away for his own sake but then I realized that was selfish as fuck to think and also demeaning and patronizing towards his own choice in the matter.
He wanted to be with me and I wanted to be with him. So. Who the fuck was I to act like I knew what was best for him? I risked the safety and eventually opened up to him about my concerns. We worked through it.
And it was pretty worth it. Satisfying. It's a comfortable thing. Reliable. Sexy. All that good shit a soul mate should be.
Why? Do you have a hot soul mate now? Is he one of the hot animal boys? I bet he is. I'd bet my left testicle specifically. That's the better one.
Fuck what. What no. Don't break up parties, c'mon, dude. That's so lame. Let people get their jiggy on. If they die, they die. It's cool. Most people would want to die partying anyway.
[ It is, quite possibly, the only nickname Flynn has ever gotten in his life that he is sort of honored to have received and it makes him smile every time.
Or maybe that is, in this case, the fact that Dirk responded so quickly and so honestly. There's something comforting about all of those words, about how clearly he's thinking about them. ]
Okay, several things.
1. Thank you for answering at this unreasonable hour. I know that I can always count on you.
2. I am slightly afraid to ask about why one of them is better than the other but I would like to know on what criteria you're judging that
3. I am absolutely sure that if you asked most people how they wanted to die, partying wouldn't make the top of the list
4. Thank you for answering so honestly about your experience. That's the most important thing. It's hard to talk about, isn't it? Even now, I find myself stalling.
5. He does have animal features, yes
6. Actually it's easier to talk about this in list form, so, I think what frightens me the most about actually talking to him about is the idea that he won't think it's as important as I do. I know that the courageous thing to do is forge ahead in the face of my fears, but. Well.
1. I'm pretty much never technically asleep, so, really. My inbox is literally always open.
2. I don't know. I can't explain it. It just feels more juicy than the other, y'know?
3. Most people are pussies then. What other way is there to go out? Okay, no. Shit. Scratch that. You're right. I would want to die in a battle or something equally as metal.
4. Yes. It is difficult. I have gotten defensive over it once or twice if I'm being real.
5. Lol fuckin' called it.
6. Yeah there is something easier to follow in list format for some reason.
I understand. I don't exactly have a stellar relationship track record. I had one boyfriend before showing up in Folkmore and it wasn't great. Mostly because of me. But like.
This is pessimistic as fuck, but basically, just get it over with. If he rejects you, you can get to the healing part a bit faster. If you hold it in forever, it probably will just get progressively worse until it comes out in a way you do not want to deal with. Trust me.
I know that you're correct about that. In my head, I know that very well, but I suppose...
Well, I may as well tell you that in this case, it's Yuri. And our relationship is long. It's, if perhaps not complex, then at the very least storied and I already nearly ruined it onceβif I come to him, asking for it to be something more than it is when we've only just gotten back onto the same ground, what if that's it?
Ruined it romantically or platonically? Because those are two different things. Although sometimes one can lead to the other, I guess.
I get the anxiety. Even so, I recommend you just talk to him. Otherwise, you may begin to pine, and pining only ever exacerbates issues. You might start getting inappropriately jealous and insecure. I did with my ex Jake before we were even dating and that was some of the bullshit that inevitably spoiled our relationship.
Some part of it also relies on you having faith in your relationship with him. It's a delicate situation, sure. But he is probably just as nervous about fucking shit up with you, you know? Even if not romantically.
Plus, like, for real? That shit will spill out eventually. Best to do it under your control rather than out of your control.
No offense taken, it does seem to be an entirely predictable outcome here. You yourself have fallen into the same trap, haven't you?
Platonically, in this case, as strange as that may be. It was back home. We were friends for years, and then we started to walk very different paths, and it was like we forgot how to be friends after all that time. Working against each other, instead of with. I suppose I am afraid less of the pining and more that I'll reach too far and ask for too much, and end up in the same place.
I know that I should be strong enough to handle that, a life without Yuri, but.
Do you speak from experience, here?
About the pining, I mean.
If not, then I suppose you're just very wise and good at giving smart advice!
I don't think any of us are really ready to handle a life without the person we love. Like, for real, between you and me, if Kaneki just up and vanished from Folkmore, I'd be a motherfucking nightmare. Heartbreak is rough.
Yeah, I do speak from experience. I'm a goddamn pro at pining, dude.
I'm also very wise and good at giving smart advice.
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text: un:scifo; late at night in early august; surprise they've been friends the whole time!
I hope this doesn't wake you up. Please only respond at a reasonable hour, I simply wanted to get the message out while I had it. This is a bit of a personal question, so also please feel free to ignore it. When you discovered that you had a soulmate here, what was your initial reaction?
Also unrelated do you think it would be a very unpopular move to break up some of the parties I keep finding in the woods? I'm worried that they will attract monsters.
(nsfw stuff) just vibing in hot blonde solidarity ...he's definitely responding at like 4:20 am
(Yes he's nicknaming him Rider as in Flynn Rider to go with Dirk Strider I don't know it makes sense in his head and is cute bye.)
I have no fuckin' idea what a reasonable hour constitutes as for you, so. Wakey, wakey, eggs, and bakey I guess. I ain't ignoring shit.
Damn. You weren't kidding about it being personal. Uh, okay.
(Someone is asking him to be emotionally vulnerable who ISN'T Kaneki??? What does he do???
Is he supposed to manifest the cold unfeeling bastard cool guy persona here? He doesn't actually want to though. Especially not with Flynn of all people. So he just. Thinks. About the least lame way of putting this.)
I was happy, I guess. Relieved. Sounds dumb as fuck but I came from a situation where I figured I'd die a sad, lonely virgin. Not that there is anything wrong with being a virgin, but, you know. I wanted to show my love through boning my true love excessively or whatever. What's more romantic than dick?
No, okay, I'm getting off track here because this shit makes my skin crawl. It's complicated. I have soul-based powers. So I was happy, but I was also terrified that I was going to somehow inevitably kill him or fuck him up mentally or physically. Some part of me wanted to sprint away for his own sake but then I realized that was selfish as fuck to think and also demeaning and patronizing towards his own choice in the matter.
He wanted to be with me and I wanted to be with him. So. Who the fuck was I to act like I knew what was best for him? I risked the safety and eventually opened up to him about my concerns. We worked through it.
And it was pretty worth it. Satisfying. It's a comfortable thing. Reliable. Sexy. All that good shit a soul mate should be.
Why? Do you have a hot soul mate now? Is he one of the hot animal boys? I bet he is. I'd bet my left testicle specifically. That's the better one.
Fuck what. What no. Don't break up parties, c'mon, dude. That's so lame. Let people get their jiggy on. If they die, they die. It's cool. Most people would want to die partying anyway.
dirk pls
Or maybe that is, in this case, the fact that Dirk responded so quickly and so honestly. There's something comforting about all of those words, about how clearly he's thinking about them. ]
Okay, several things.
1. Thank you for answering at this unreasonable hour. I know that I can always count on you.
2. I am slightly afraid to ask about why one of them is better than the other but I would like to know on what criteria you're judging that
3. I am absolutely sure that if you asked most people how they wanted to die, partying wouldn't make the top of the list
4. Thank you for answering so honestly about your experience. That's the most important thing. It's hard to talk about, isn't it? Even now, I find myself stalling.
5. He does have animal features, yes
6. Actually it's easier to talk about this in list form, so, I think what frightens me the most about actually talking to him about is the idea that he won't think it's as important as I do. I know that the courageous thing to do is forge ahead in the face of my fears, but. Well.
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2. I don't know. I can't explain it. It just feels more juicy than the other, y'know?
3. Most people are pussies then. What other way is there to go out? Okay, no. Shit. Scratch that. You're right. I would want to die in a battle or something equally as metal.
4. Yes. It is difficult. I have gotten defensive over it once or twice if I'm being real.
5. Lol fuckin' called it.
6. Yeah there is something easier to follow in list format for some reason.
I understand. I don't exactly have a stellar relationship track record. I had one boyfriend before showing up in Folkmore and it wasn't great. Mostly because of me. But like.
This is pessimistic as fuck, but basically, just get it over with. If he rejects you, you can get to the healing part a bit faster. If you hold it in forever, it probably will just get progressively worse until it comes out in a way you do not want to deal with. Trust me.
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Well, I may as well tell you that in this case, it's Yuri. And our relationship is long. It's, if perhaps not complex, then at the very least storied and I already nearly ruined it onceβif I come to him, asking for it to be something more than it is when we've only just gotten back onto the same ground, what if that's it?
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Ruined it romantically or platonically? Because those are two different things. Although sometimes one can lead to the other, I guess.
I get the anxiety. Even so, I recommend you just talk to him. Otherwise, you may begin to pine, and pining only ever exacerbates issues. You might start getting inappropriately jealous and insecure. I did with my ex Jake before we were even dating and that was some of the bullshit that inevitably spoiled our relationship.
Some part of it also relies on you having faith in your relationship with him. It's a delicate situation, sure. But he is probably just as nervous about fucking shit up with you, you know? Even if not romantically.
Plus, like, for real? That shit will spill out eventually. Best to do it under your control rather than out of your control.
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Platonically, in this case, as strange as that may be. It was back home. We were friends for years, and then we started to walk very different paths, and it was like we forgot how to be friends after all that time. Working against each other, instead of with. I suppose I am afraid less of the pining and more that I'll reach too far and ask for too much, and end up in the same place.
I know that I should be strong enough to handle that, a life without Yuri, but.
Do you speak from experience, here?
About the pining, I mean.
If not, then I suppose you're just very wise and good at giving smart advice!
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I get that. Fucking up an already good thing.
I don't think any of us are really ready to handle a life without the person we love. Like, for real, between you and me, if Kaneki just up and vanished from Folkmore, I'd be a motherfucking nightmare. Heartbreak is rough.
Yeah, I do speak from experience. I'm a goddamn pro at pining, dude.
I'm also very wise and good at giving smart advice.
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Dirk, have you ever felt the way you do about him about anyone else? The person you were pining over before, maybe?