that doesn't sound like a bullshit excuse. i mean, you're bound to be socially awkward in some form, you love in near total isolation. it's a miracle you know how to make conversation period.
oh my god that's horrible. the whole just trying to force feelings thing, i mean, that's such a terrible idea. the catching feelings thing isn't stupid, dirk, not at that age. i did it, too. i'm seriously not going to hold that against younger us.
obsessive and psychotic, huh? like 'murder anyone who talks to my partner' psychotic? have you ever fed a human being another human being?
that's a serious question btw.
i still like you, you know. and i don't believe you're entirely as selfish as you think you are.
(Now he just felt weirdly twitchy and exposed right at the nerves. Like he overshared. There was absolutely nothing cool about anything about this.)
Yeah, I guess you have a point.
It was. In retrospect, I should have told him no but I was lonely and desperate. I think some part of me didn't even care because I just wanted to be with him so badly? It was the first time I thought a guy might be into me and even if it wasn't really that way, I think I was willing to pretend it was.
No, I haven't, but I feel I can't have a fair comparison given the circumstances. Who knows what I would be like in regular society.
See. I don't know if I would do those things or not. My instinct isn't even to say no right away but to say "it would depend."
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like that's a bad thing?
oh my god that's horrible. the whole just trying to force feelings thing, i mean, that's such a terrible idea. the catching feelings thing isn't stupid, dirk, not at that age. i did it, too. i'm seriously not going to hold that against younger us.
obsessive and psychotic, huh? like 'murder anyone who talks to my partner' psychotic? have you ever fed a human being another human being?
that's a serious question btw.
i still like you, you know. and i don't believe you're entirely as selfish as you think you are.
eheh you right
Yeah, I guess you have a point.
It was. In retrospect, I should have told him no but I was lonely and desperate. I think some part of me didn't even care because I just wanted to be with him so badly? It was the first time I thought a guy might be into me and even if it wasn't really that way, I think I was willing to pretend it was.
No, I haven't, but I feel I can't have a fair comparison given the circumstances. Who knows what I would be like in regular society.
See. I don't know if I would do those things or not. My instinct isn't even to say no right away but to say "it would depend."
Maybe. But you're sweet.
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i get that. loneliness makes us do some desperate shit. it's just this deep urge to be loved, dude.
oh yeah that's true. but i don't THINK you would force people into cannibalism.
maybe i am. so what? my feelings are what they are.
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Your faith in me remains astonishing.
Okay, so now that I've fully exposed my guts here. Setting parameters would probably be a good idea. I would rather not shackle you to anything.
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not even the bed? :P
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Maybe to the bed.
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but ok ok parameters.
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Yes. So. What exactly do you want? This isn't exactly a traditional situation.
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i want to be able to talk to you without lying about anything.
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I won't blame you if you'd rather not have an actual relationship. I won't ask you to sacrifice your normal life or possible relationships for me.
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but i'd like to have you.
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You can have me. You already do.
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ok well now i'm just blushing.
you've got me too, you know.
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So. Can't believe you have an internet live-in slut now at your beck and call.
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