(Now he just felt weirdly twitchy and exposed right at the nerves. Like he overshared. There was absolutely nothing cool about anything about this.)
Yeah, I guess you have a point.
It was. In retrospect, I should have told him no but I was lonely and desperate. I think some part of me didn't even care because I just wanted to be with him so badly? It was the first time I thought a guy might be into me and even if it wasn't really that way, I think I was willing to pretend it was.
No, I haven't, but I feel I can't have a fair comparison given the circumstances. Who knows what I would be like in regular society.
See. I don't know if I would do those things or not. My instinct isn't even to say no right away but to say "it would depend."
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eheh you right
Yeah, I guess you have a point.
It was. In retrospect, I should have told him no but I was lonely and desperate. I think some part of me didn't even care because I just wanted to be with him so badly? It was the first time I thought a guy might be into me and even if it wasn't really that way, I think I was willing to pretend it was.
No, I haven't, but I feel I can't have a fair comparison given the circumstances. Who knows what I would be like in regular society.
See. I don't know if I would do those things or not. My instinct isn't even to say no right away but to say "it would depend."
Maybe. But you're sweet.
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i get that. loneliness makes us do some desperate shit. it's just this deep urge to be loved, dude.
oh yeah that's true. but i don't THINK you would force people into cannibalism.
maybe i am. so what? my feelings are what they are.
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Your faith in me remains astonishing.
Okay, so now that I've fully exposed my guts here. Setting parameters would probably be a good idea. I would rather not shackle you to anything.
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not even the bed? :P
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Maybe to the bed.
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but ok ok parameters.
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Yes. So. What exactly do you want? This isn't exactly a traditional situation.
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i want to be able to talk to you without lying about anything.
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I won't blame you if you'd rather not have an actual relationship. I won't ask you to sacrifice your normal life or possible relationships for me.
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but i'd like to have you.
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You can have me. You already do.
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ok well now i'm just blushing.
you've got me too, you know.
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So. Can't believe you have an internet live-in slut now at your beck and call.
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